Makes for Great Dreaming

I was in my basement and for those of you who don't know, my basement.. is huge. It's basically the inside of a cathedral.. except furnished like a normal basement.. just with really, really tall ceilings.. and arches. And so I'm sitting there, on my couch. Everyone just went upstairs. Who is everyone? Well my family I think, maybe there was a friend or two in the mix. I say that my friends were involved because there was a moderate group of people ascending the staircase and I don't think it's very often that all of my family are in the basement at the same time.
Regardless, I was sitting, people went upstairs. I'm not doing anything of any real consequence, not even watching tv. I was just kind of sitting there. Out from over one of the ceiling arches flies a bird, and it swiftly descends towards me. I watch it fly all the way down from the fifty foot tall archway until it becomes level with my head, flying right in front of my face about two feet out. It's a hummingbird.. a really big one. Like the size of a crow. This is amazing stuff, really it is! When was the last time you saw a crow sized hummingbird? I had to show people, right? So I grabbed it! Gently, not trying to hurt it you know? I just kind of wrapped my right hand around it's back and wings. I would have set my finger out for the bird to stand on, kinda like how most people let their pet birds just hang out on their index finger. However when I tried to do this, the bird used its five inch hummingbird, slim nectar beak to thug-whap my finger! Now I normally wouldn't use an expression like "thug-whap" but that's just the best way to put it. He just reared his head up a little, quickly nodded forward, and thwacked my finger. I kept trying but he started to bite my finger, which didn't hurt at all, just annoyed me.
So I decided, "screw it," and just took him upstairs to show everyone this awesome, giant hummingbird I found, that I somehow caught! As I was ascending the staircase, I passed by an open window, the bird slipped free, and flew away.. I was dissappointed and no one would believe me now.

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Later that week, a few friends came over. I think Alison was one of them, cause she introduced me to a friend of hers from college, and I remember thinking that it wasn't the friend she had at her birthday party earlier this summer. Well Alison introduces this girl by saying that she has a huge crush on me just from pictures and what Alison had told her about me. Honestly it was a little offputting at first, but she was really cute. She kind of reminded me of the main actress from the M. Night movie "The Happening". You know, the girl who is the wife or girlfriend or something of the main character teacher dude. Except this girl was shorter, kept her hair in a short ponytail, and was a bit eccentric. Not eccentric to the point where she was really weird, but she just had little quirks about her that made her very interesting to hang out with and talk to. I think that's why it worked out, because after that day I called her, had a great conversation, and made plans to go out with her later in the week. Her name was Michelle.
I don't know why this is important, but my family moved into an apartment ajoined to a grocery store. I don't know why we did this, perhaps it was because my mom didn't want to travel very far to attend the little cooking classes that went on in this store every once in a while. So browsing the food aisle became an activity for when Michelle and I had nothing better to do. It was always an adventure too, because the owners of this store had no real sorting system, and they had new foods and brands almost every day. There were brands of pop that I had never heard of before, some of them must have been foreign. Their names just looked like a jumble of letters to me. We'd run around through the aisles and try to find the most obscure and abstract names or products, like a milk foamer, ya know, like those foamers they have for hand soap? Except this one was to foam the milk inside so you could drink it as foam.
One of the most noticable and interesting things I found about Michelle was that she had a huge collection of colored contacts. So she always had different colored eyes. It was weird at first, but it turned out to be one of those things about her that I loved. Especially when she wore a different color in each eye. I think I liked her combination of golden yellow and crimson red the best. It was really wild and I know it really freaked other people out, for instance cashiers would always get startled when they looked into her eyes, but I really loved it. I think it's because even though she always had something different from day to day, I could always recognize the pattern of her iris' through the changed color. But one day, she came over without any colored contacts in and her eyes were the most beautiful shade of blue..

Then I woke up.. and puked in Jarid's bathroom

Fading

I feel like the summer is fading away, my days are blurring together, I can't tell one from another. I don't know how to fix it.. I don't like it

bitchfest, not to be confused with beerfest

Colds suck.. a lot..

Now that that's out of the way, I'd like to complain some more.

First off, summer is being a pest. I don't want a job, but I need one, but the places I try are not hiring, but I'm near broke..

Secondly I'm so bored lately that I could explode, but I'm not really wanting to hang out with people, at least I don't want to enough that I don't want to call anyone, I'd definitely hang out if someone came to me. Call me a lazy bitch, cause I am, but I'm the kind of person that's usually content enough, if bored, on my own so that I don't always think to see what friends are up to =/

Third: I'm getting a little depressed. Not like.. seriously depressed, but just.. I got sick of being single at least 2 years ago, but I don't know what I want to do.. I'm also tired of being on a general ignore list, not really, but ya know.. I'm never the focus of attention unless I'm being sat on or insulted, and although it's lighthearted and you all mean well (I think), it's getting quite old. Now I know Jarid you might think this is targeting you, but it really isn't at least not exclusively, but mostly I'm getting a bit fed up with the general practice then any certain person.
The worst part of all this is I don't want to call anyone on it. I don't want to be "that guy" that spoils the fun and acts like a big bitch. I also don't want to have someone else be the person to say "yeah chance doesn't want to say anything but he really hates it when..."

I guess it's just that time again, when the "pick on chance" game just gets to be too much, I bitch at everyone, and then it stops for a few weeks and starts to build back up.. but I really don't want that.. at all.. I also don't want it to be gone altogether either, cause I know it's amusing and all that, and it's part of that friendship thing to pick on one another and wrestle and what not.. but from my perception, it's completely one-sided.

I'd really like to talk to people about it in person, but there's a lot of people I'd have to talk to, and I think some of them wouldn't care, or at least would act like they didn't. Also, I'm not sure if it's gotten to that point yet.. perhaps I'll start talking about it here and there where it suits me..

Sorry for bitching, but I might explode if I don't, also.. thanks Maddy for letting me know that it bothered you the other day, feels good to have some support ^_^